A solution for decluttering

While posting my last post about attachment, a thought hit my mind. The reason I keep my cd's in a drawer, for instance, is so I can't see them. They are nicely tucked away and when I open up the drawer, I feel a bit of the attachment and emotion there is in that drawer.

I think this happens with a lot of stuff people tend to keep close, but out of sight. Sometimes even not so close in a storage, but out of sight anyway. I think it's not a 'maybe, one day, I could use it'. I honestly believe it's the attachment to the piece of stuff. In an ongoing consumerism world, what we 'have' shows for who we 'are'. I have, so I am. For some reason I manage to become a staring time traveler whenever I see stuff from the (even sometimes not so) good old days.

Attached

So I put up my cd's on market place. Around 88 of them. And someone offered me 40 euro's for it. And even though that's just about the utmost fair price I can get for them, my mind is screaming 'nooooo'.

They take up one drawer in a closet that is fairly empty for the rest of it (despite of my socks and underwear). I think with ditching the cd's and relocating the rest of what's in the closet, I might even be able to ditch the whole drawer closet completely. More space, less stuff.

All of the cd's are also on my computer in mp3. What's even worse, I don't even have a way of playing a cd anyway since I don't own anything that eats cd's anymore; selling off my mac usb superdrive was the last of it.

While I think of it, the last time I ever listened to a cd anyway was over three years ago. In a different life, it feels.

Rolling on

Whenever there’s cash, I dump in into the great abyss called Debt. Not so long ago I managed to give my motivation and my down payment a giant boost by taking it under 10K. Now I'm even further down to less than 1/3... What a great feeling that is! Now to continue for what ever is left over... in a pace I hope to hold until it’s completely gone.

In the mean time I’m also selling stuff out of my home. Still don’t know why this suddenly hit me, but I didn’t feel happy with having big closets around filled with stuff I seldom use.

So bye bye vintage cupboard, electric drumset, studio monitor speaker set, apple accessories and so on.

I hope to get a lot more to go. Maybe even the digital piano, too. I am trying to learn and play the guitar. Far more mobile than a piano, I must say. So maybe I can sell it and get myself a small second hand guitar or something. Or just sell it. Period.

Couldn't stop myself

I just couldn't stop myself updating the countdown timer and debt kill plan. With my recent calculation I could be debt free with maxing it out untill the end of this year. It will take up near all my savings, but I think every penny is worth getting rid of my debt.
Just watching the countdown timer show a number I can relate to was such a relief!

I know I've been kind of obsessed with it lately, buy I just couldn't take it anymore. (I guess only miss Struggler knew how bad it was, and my best friend since I kinda went underground in my appartement calculating and counting...)

Closer and closer

So I needed a holiday and was willing to spend some money on it, even though I actually am still in debt. Reason was I never been away longer than a week for the past three years. This also was the first holiday with me and the GF where we were together for so long. We had a wonderful vacation (road trip style living in a car and tent for three almost three weeks) and really enjoyed the different landscapes of the parts of Europe we saw. Of course, we ran into some interesting confrontations with each other and ourself, but I think it's better for all of us to get ut of our comfort zone and be confronted with our own way of going through life and question why we do what we do. In the end this will bring us closer and closer.

I am going to nail it!

Hell yeah. I am going to nail this son-of-a-debt like a Tasmanian Devil in warmode.
Just made an extra transfer which will get my debt under the magical 10K border.

I guess it's all psychological, but with me picking up my new car recently I finally have got the feeling that I'm getting back on top of things. Freeing up another 100 per month, watching my monthly spending go down and down, makes me feel confident about killing this idiot debt.

I just updated my graph on the right which now looks like the coolest thing ever*. And the beauty in it all is there still is money in my savings account and there still is enough money to get through next month anyway. This feels GREAT! Because, I will be done with this debt by the end of MAY next year!! That's in less than a year!

Possessions taking possession of me

Since a while I'm trying to declutter. And guess what... the more I look around me the less I feel like I really need al this stuff.

It doesn't make me any happier at all, it just stands around keeping me from being able to move in a day if I wanted.

I have got no clue where this thought came from, but I think it has everything to do with me trying to let go of my old patterns and me feeling stuck in life and the never ending circle sleep-eat-work-repeat. I was looking for myself in my mindfulness courses the past two years, and all I can see now is all the little patterns that I set up for myself to feel safe or needed or wanted or whatever. 

It's time to let go of all of my habits and for some reason owning less and less stuff makes perfect sense to me right now.