Tuesday, June 19, 2018

Another month flew by

Another month flew by. Well, not really, since I'm recovering from my burnout. More on that in the get-out-my-burn-out section of the blog.

For some reason I find it very hard to cope. Today was my first day back at work again (after six weeks of downtime), a one-and-a-half hour of socialising and cleaning out my desk drawers. For some reason I find it very hard to believe I'm going to make it any longer with this company. I need some new challenge or something. I feel like life is too much of a system of recurring events at this moment. I know I need the rest and repetition and discipline to gain myself more energy and health and that's fine. But somehow going back at it and waiting another year before I can pull the plug here feels utterly saddening.

I need to get my grip on things but I guess I'm too low on ideas and energy to actually see what's my next step, which is super annoying.

"Quit complaining and get your ass of of your chair and do something, you lazy ass!"

Yes. I know. You're right. I'm my own enemy again. But I just needed to get this out here so I get my system back on track. Thanks...

Friday, May 25, 2018

Goals are for suckers, so I set myself a new one

As always I'm philosophin' about money, work, financial freedom, burn out, relationships, the whole sjabang. The thing is, since I lack motivation and discipline and most of the other succes factors as I've read lately and also, writing and reading aren't good for your future either (so what the heck are you doing here anyway?) I noticed I'm the one nagging for change but seem to be refusing to actually do anything. Because hey, impossible goals and to lazy/unmotivated/undisciplined to start working on them. I'm gonna be waiting until it feels right.

Sunday, May 20, 2018

I am my biggest problem in life

It took me over ten years, lots of self-help books and personal training and finally a burn-out to come to this very simple conclusion: I am my biggest problem in life. Even though this is a very simple conclusion, the solution is far from simple. The decision to step out of this lies somewhere deep covered underneath my default settings.

Tuesday, August 15, 2017

Love and attention is always the answer

After my last post on stuff I took some more time for myself and putting things in perspective (and I sold one of the MacBooks, which of course gave a little more breathing room). The thing is, we human people are pretty decent hardwired by default, yet the programming part (or conditioning or whatever you call it) can sometimes contain bugs. Most of those bugs are created in our youth in reaction on receiving (or needing) love and care of our parents. And no matter how hard they try, there will always be deficiencies that you want to be made up for in one way or another. This making up for might grow out into behavior that might not be of best interest to one other.

Saturday, August 5, 2017

Why I hate stuff

The other day I noticed a beautiful quote.


And man, did I need to get myself into some things-chasing behavior before finally noticing what's going on.

Thursday, July 13, 2017

Q2 recap

Okido, another quarter gone, another recap to be made. Even though I've been talking about an insane savings rate, you could have also been reading my moving story which turned out pretty costly yet still worth it.

All things added up my real savings rate isn't up-and-running so far. And to undisclose another thing, I actually calculated my SR a bit wrong (since I was calculating it as a percentage of my total expenditure and not of my total income). Anyway. I updated my spreadsheet (also in my Q1 recap) and now it's telling no more lies (actually, my SR comes out a bit better with the correct formula). So here are the numbers for Q2!

Saturday, July 8, 2017

Savings rate ramp up!

With my monthly income somewhere around 2.5K and my fixed charges (rent, utilities, insurance) being less than 600 euro’s monthly my savings rate is extraordinary since the beginning of this month. Including some money for groceries, fuel and even a fun thing here and there I’m up and running 60%. Whooha!


Did I mention I didn’t even include my vacation allowance and end-year bonus within this net income? So truly, vacations and other stuff aren’t even influencing my SR here.

Pretty neat, but the challenge for now truly is not spending more. As you’ve read, my spending while moving was quite a lot. Of course this made my living place cozy and neat, but for now I’ll have to stay put for at least a year before even breaking even here.