Indecisiveness

I've begun this year doubting about a possible job change. Ironically enough, the exact same position was offered again a couple last month. And even though I'm a lot more relaxed about taking or declining the offer, I'm still in a bit of a loop-hole here since I tend to both want en not want the job.

What does seem to be of play here is the fact that I'm already at the same pay-grade as the other job, albeit with totally different responsibilities (software dev versus asset management, incomparable, lol). What's a bit difficult to try to figure out, though, is this.

I'm on a path to FI. Maybe not RE, coast/barista-RE seems what's possible for now but anyway, I'm cruising there (or dragging along the boring middle as I now know why this feels so dreadful). Staying in IT is bound to leave me with at least this pay-grade or better, unless the world falls apart (and what matters then, anyway). Pace is quite relaxed, hybrid working, some responsibilities but not too much pressure.

Hopping once again will keep my current pay-grade (at least, same scale, I don't really see a big jump here). But the future outlook is a lot less straight-forward. There aren't many 36h/week roles in that field and I'm not really sure I want to take on a much heavier workload where the outlook on hybrid might also decay (as in, I'm pretty sure I'll be needed at lots of places around the metropolitan area). I know some of my possible-future-colleagues and I know they are in (one of) the office(s) a lot. I also know I might be slightly more happy with a bit more interaction in my working life, but I'm also pretty happy with not having to.

Also, that role is a lot more in-the-middle of things. I'm already being told that there's a major workload (which maybe is fine because, I need some kind of pressure) but there are also lots of responsibilities where I'm not really feeling confident. As stated before, that might be a nice  bit of personal development with a learning curve but as for now it feels uncertain.

I am still indecisive but not having major wake-up freaked and not able to sleep nights on it anymore. Also I'm not too proud of yet again being indecisive on this topic a whole year further. Worst part of this is I feel guilty either way. Taking the job? I leave a team behind. Not taking the job? I FOMO majorly.

I've made up my mind to at least make a choice before the end of year and hope to sleep another night.